When you are on the road
towards trying to redeem your sanity,
the urge to intentionally hurt yourself
becomes too much to bear.
It becomes so palpably strong,
you want to do it every time
something bad comes along.
It becomes so drastically real,
all you want to do is feel
the pain it brings and the
intense calmness when you see
the blood or feel the bump.
It comes undeniably close to your soul,
you can only do so much to just hold on
and stop yourself in time
and ask for help
and ask for the people you love
to just stay close and be near.