New House, New Beginnings, New Life

as we start
this new chapter
of our lives,
in this new place
we can call our own,
we clasp our hands,
bow our heads
and fervently wish
for new beginnings
and fresh tomorrows.

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As if the universe aligned all the planets and the stars to help usher a great morning for us, October 18 dawned with clear blue skies and the warmest sunshine this part of the earth could bestow. It was the day scheduled for our move. Continue reading

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i’m over you…

i’m over you.
yes, i’ve finally moved on.
i did not get affected
just by the sight of you.
i’m already immune
to your mere presence.
your arms at the back
of my chair no longer
sent tingles down my spine.
your touch did not make me
shiver way deep down inside.
your voice saying my name
was unable to work
its magic on me anymore.

i’m over you.
yes, i’ve moved on.
i did not curl on my side,
tossing and turning
until the dawn made way to the sun,
shining on the waking horizon.
i did not think how much
i wanted to be pulled
into your arms and held there,
to stay forever there.
i did not lie awake
at all hours wondering
what it would have been like
to have your lips
seal my own – just the
lightest brush of a kiss,
so i won’t have to think
of what ifs anymore.

i’m over you.
yes, i’ve moved on
from acknowledging what i feel
to burying them in the dark
corners of my heart,
where they utter silent cries
of longing and despair.
yes, i’m over you.
at least, that’s what i tell myself
before i try to go to sleep at night.

 

 

i miss you…


i miss the simple things
that speak of you –
the touch of your hand
on my waist.
the feel of your fingers
intertwined with mine.
the cadence of your voice
when you say my name.
the way your eyes twinkle
each time you smile.

i miss the simple things
that remind me of you –
the smell of rain
on every strand of my hair.
the whispers of the wind
on the folds of my dress.
the warmth of the sun
that kisses my skin.
the cold nights spent
together under the stars.

i miss the simple things
that make me remember you
with every breath i breathe.
i miss the simple things
that spoke to my soul
and made me love you from the start.
i miss you.

 

 

living within my thoughts…

like a wounded bird caged
inside your closed palms,
i huddle and lie here,
within the four corners
of this womb-like chamber,
where everything is gloomy dark
and all my nightmares lurk
in every space.

here, i reside within my thoughts,
where all my youthful dreams
have been cast aside to make way
for macabre views of the world.
where cynicism and apathy
are drugs that fuel
my every waking moment – my senses
all wracked in unimaginable pain.

 

 

regaining life’s clarity…

ignoring you is not doing
anything good to my sanity.
it is worsening
my soul’s ruminations,
rendering me helpless
in the middle of the night.
my heart cries out
your name in a silent wail,
each keening note
slowly shattering the fragile
faith it has held on to
precariously in the past.
so, my days are spent missing
because not having you,
even just to talk to,
is obliterating bit by bit
what i deemed in the past
as my life’s clarity.

 

 

i’ll continue to love you…

if i had known that you’d take back
all the beautiful things you’ve ever
said and promised,
i would have guarded my heart better.
i wouldn’t have given you my complete trust.
as it is, you now have a place in my soul
and you have broken the faith
i resolutely placed in your hands.
still, i could never ask you to untake
everything you’ve ever told me.
i will never regret the way i felt
when you held my hands.
i will continue loving you
until i have gotten over your dropping me
irrevocably out of your life.