Going Into Oblivion


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i see myself slipping away
into the starry nights of forever,
where there is absence of pain
and no more reign of terror.
i can feel myself drifting away
into the kaleidoscopic dreams of tomorrow,
where sunrises are endless
and there’s no room for sorrow.

there to where i’m going,
i will no longer cry
myself to sleep at night.
i will no longer have
the need to fight.
there i can just be
at peace with myself,
even without you by my side.


i need only you


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in the morning when i wake
from a fitful sleep where
i tossed and turned,
i hear my heart break.
i sense its shards pierce
the innermost recesses
of my soul that only longs
for a love to keep me whole.

when i open my tear-filled eyes
that have spent a night
in misery and despair,
i see my world turn to ice.
i feel its coldness envelop
the very core of my being
that misses your warmth
with a pain so deep and reeling.

there is no other respite,
no other cure – but the very
sight of you, the very
presence of you – right beside
me – holding me close,
keeping me near, kissing my
cheeks stained with tears.
there is only you i need.


i curl up and hide

Curled Up in Pain

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when the pain
seems too much to bear,
i clench my eyes shut
and take myself
to where you are.
if you don’t know yet,
i’m telling you now –
your arms provide
the safe harbor i long for.
you are the angel
i call out to when i can’t
seem to go on anymore.
when i think of you,
i find another reason to live.

if only you feel the same…
but, you don’t.
so, i wrap my arms
around me and curl
into the cocoon i have spun
to conceal myself from
all the hurts you have caused.
i wallow in the pain and
darkness to unfeel the
sting of your selfishness.
i wait for the day when
you’d realize my worth
in your life – hoping
against hope that everything
won’t be too late for us both.