A Poem a Day: March 8

Elle, Andy and the Watermelon Lolly

Elle, Andy and the Watermelon Lolly


i hide my pain
behind smiles and laughter
i don’t feel inside.
they don’t know
there is an emptiness
slowly eating away
at my heart.
they are not aware
of the tiredness
weighing down
my soul.
they could not see
my mangled being
steadily disintegrating
every second.

i wonder
how it would feel
to let go
of all these pain
and just surrender
to my selfish need
of ending my life.
how i wish i did
not have all these
responsibilities stopping
me from reaching for
a much-longed for respite.

but, every time
i awake and hear
gentle giggles that
painted beautiful smiles
on my babies’ faces
and reflected on their eyes,
each time my heart swells
at just seeing this
simple yet profound sight,
i sigh.
no, i am not yet
ready to leave this life.

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